I've got a bad feeling about this

I'm leaving soon. I'mhappy that i can go work and buy a car so i can cart myself around edmonton but then again i'm not happy that i have to leave for a little while. Leaving behind some really good friends. well i guess i'm not leaving them behind at all they are all going to carry on in their lives and have a good summer. I wish the world reveloved around me.

I know hate is a strong word. so i'm not going to use it. I really really really dislke it when people clap and cheer at the end of a movie. Ok maybe i shouldn't be all that hard on some people. I mean if the actors were there in the theatre i would clap and say they did a good job (even if they didn't.....you know to spare their feelings) and share my $11 dollar popcorn and 1.5L bucket of soda.

and if amanda Binds was there i would throw popcorn in her hair, and when she looked behind i would pretend it wasn't me and wave.

But back to the rant.

Why clap? why?! it makes my finger nails swell because of how much i dislike it.

and when you laugh at parts that aren't meant to be funny.

or if your a high school student trying to impress his high school girlfriend by making comments on how gay jhonny depp or orlando bloom is.

I get it pimply-faced high school kids, you hide your insecurities by lashing out at a source that won't lash back. we all get it. therapy isn't that expensive.

Also, those stupid e-mails where it says if you dont send this e-mail out to ten or so people then something good or bad will happen to you.

sometimes they threaten you with your life by giving examples of what happened to other people.

"jimmy didn't send it out and later he got in a car crash"

i just want to know what kind of voodoo you can put on the internet. or why some person with rat skulls tied to wet leather wrapped around some persons neck with bad teeth would do something like put a curse on an e-mail. Does it really matter to this voodoo priestess if you send a poem about drunk driving to ten people?

And there is no such thing as voodoo magic! Argh! don't get me started on that!

Don't get me wrong, some of these things are touching. Like how some organization will donate a penny for however many people get this email. This just isn't that great of a deal. for example, if 20,000,000 receive this email only 200,000 dollars will be given. its not that much, considering that 20,000,000 won't ever get the same email about some person that was stupid enough to drink and drive. And is it possible to track how many times that email has been received and factor out how many people have received it twice, or three times?

I believe God is the highest power in the universe, i really, really, dont think God would allow someone to have bad sex for ten years if you dont forward a picture of a playboy bunny made out of pound signs and dashes.

-matty k

Someday i'll pay the bills with this guitar

too many late nights.... way to many late nights.

i'm finding it hard to sleep lately.

i've had plenty of lame days lately. mostly consisting of painting models.

that commercial with that lady dancing towards that guy (if you can call that dancing) screaming "bown chica wownwa!" interests me.

i wonder if a girl has ever done that ever. especially in an IGA or Safeway or Sobeys. and to a stocker to boot.

i really need to make a cool new song. it would be all cool and new.

i listen alot to the battle of the bands cd. and i listen to eric's songs the most. i really like them. especially the one where he's all like "So i pray to god when he points my way and says pick up your bedroll"

damn he's sexy
especially with his voice.
is it wrong to say that if he's singing about jesus.

anywho i am going to go do something masculin now.... like rip out chest hair and kill a deer.

-matty k

who needs politicians?

we all do!

anarchy is the worst idea in the history of bad ideas.

honestly we dont live in an idealistic world where everyone gets along and everyone works for the benefits of others.

face it we dont

do you really think we would have doctors? or lawyers? or education? or a running water supply?

it would be survival of the fittest. and those kids that wear patches on there scissor-cut denim vests aren't going to make it. if someone bigger then you wants your apple...or supple body.... they are going to take it and who is going to protect you? the police force? they wont exist! why would they? why would some one put there life in risk every day and not get paid for it? for the benefit of others? when was the last time you risked your life so people you dont even know can live in ignorance of the crack house next door?

do you think you would have coffee? or other imported goods?

if you have bad eyes and need glasses what would you do if you needed a new prescription or a refill of contacts? nothing, you wouldn't be able to go to your local optometrist.

anarchy is a horrible idea

maybe if humans lived in a wonderful garden where all we had to do is frolic and dance it might work out. but probably not because we already blew that when we had the chance.

anarchy will not work. so stop putting those symbols on the back of bus stations. its stupid. we need politicians and we need our corrupt government. if we didnt have these people running our country we wouldnt have these luxuries that everyone enjoys

this includes internet, printed paper, pens, iPods, furnaces, light bulbs, tooth paste, medicine, dentures, cars, pumped gas, cd's, video games, snowboards, cheese, airplanes, and other fun things we enjoy.

pretty much anything we buy will no longer be available to us. if it requires someone else doing the job then we wont get it for ourselves. be honest, you and the people you care about come first. why would that change when you will gain absolutely no benefit from it.

dont get me wrong, some people are nice and kind and will strive for the benefit of mankind no matter what, but there are people out there that won't. and unless we are all on the same page of human benefit then nothing will get done.

and for people pretending to be anarchists stop BUYING things! buying things defeats the whole purpose of not having a government! so unless you made your denim from scratch your a hypocrite when you wear it.

-matty k

dont say it if it means nothing

I have an American Eagle card gift card in my pocket for 25 dollars. I have been in and out of the store and i always forget that it is in my shirt pocket. I keep things in my shirt pocket so i wont forget things are there like my pens and pencils. i have problems with pens leaking if i put them in my pants pockets.

I am having a song writing block.

I made scalloped potatoes for dinner tonight. i think they turned out really well. especially if you like melted butter......and to a lesser extent heart attacks.

I went to church yesterday and they were passing out the bread for communion. this is different then my church...you know the normal one (just kidding!). you see when i go for communion you go up to the front cross your hands say amen and drink sugary wine out of a communal cup.

this grosses me out a little because all they use is a cloth to wipe where he/she has drank. And if you have recently taken bio 265 like i have simply wiping something will not remove all the pathogenic bacteria.

but God wont let us get sick from that will he?

i am having dinner at a friends house right now... i should probably be over there instead of writing this. oh ok here is dArren saying its time to go. see you in a bit

-matty k

wishing for longer nights.

The days are starting to get warmer, longer and brighter. I guess I should be happy and getting excited like the rest of you, but summer is the my least favorite season. well at least it is now.

dont get me wrong...i like the weather and the longer days aren't to shabby either (my mom lets me stay out later) but its not about the weather.... well maybe kind of but it is a very tiny factor in my dislike of this season.

i'm not too found of spring either.

Now if you know me, you know that my preference of seasons does not reflect my personality. just because i like winter does not mean that i myself am cold and gloomy. but then again the season could describe me perfectly... the only person who i know that has verbally expressed her great and vast knowledge on the psychmind was that girl in my writing 300 class. and believe me this is the girl that makes you look badly upon people going into the psych profession.

i honestly have to say if you psychology students want to have any credibility with the writing 300 class, or the whole academic comunity if she is let out these doors of concordia you need to go down to the pizza hut in capilanno and demand her resignation from the social science that is psychology.

let me tell you what she did the other day....

we were "peer reviewing" essays in class and we were having a discussion on whether or not you have to cite something. so we came to a conclusion as a class (minus one) that if you dont think it is general knowledge then cite your resources. for example when alberta joined up with Canada in 1905 its general knowledge.

or in her case 4th year psychology terminology.

so when the teacher asked her to cite where she got this information, and said that in a more serious paper it would be plagerism, she was offended and blurted out...

"so i have to act like i'm writing to a five year old?!"

this probably shouldn't of bothered me, but it did. not everyone is in senior level psych and not everyone will know what those terms are.

i guess its because she said itso arrogantly. i kinda wanted to blurt out some random enzyme like....adenylyl cyclase (witch is associated in muscle movment) and have her not understand it and say something like "oh so i have to write like i'm writing to idiots?"

but that would be mean and very hypocritical and i know that not everyone has an interest in biology and i am ok with that, not everyone is as big as a geek or nerd.

but i digress from my original story.... i dont like summer because its when i am away from you.
winter might seem gloomy but those are the days i am with you and thats why its my favorite season.

there i said it.

-matty k

rain come on down

I was in the cafeteria today and I thought to myself, "hey, I haven't had grape pop in such a long time!"

so I bought it and some Jalapeño chips and retired up to my friends apartment.

I now realize why I haven't bought grape pop in awhile.

I cant help writing comics in class. I get bored easily. especially when the class is being told that we all have toxic lifestyles and cervical cancer.

last time I checked I didn't have a cervix.

come to think of it its been awhile since i have checked ...........checking.....checking.....checking........
nope still a lack of cervix.

like every other guy I get off easy. (heh)

mmmmm the flavor of these chips is dancing on my tongue like a drunken underage girl at the local bar "dirty" dancing with a 34 year old.

that was a wee bit gross.
I don't like 34 year olds. I'm fine with 33 and 35 and everything before and after. but I have had a couple run-ins with gross 34's. run-ins with me screaming "I need an adult! I need an adult!"

I bet he wont be wondering around the mall bothering little kids on where the electronic isle is anymore.

I have to write an essay on child discipline. since being an RA I have changed a lot of my views on child discipline. every child is different and therefore do not all get the same discipline. for some a stern talking to will set them on the right course, but others you wish corporal punishment was still socially acceptable.

and then others you want to stuff in a dishwasher and put it on rinse.

not that I feel that way.

I think this essay is going to be fun.

-Matty k

i wont have to tell you when my eyes start bleeding

i dont think that anyone would er have to tell someone if there eyes started bleeding. well i guess if you were blind you wouldnt be able to see anyones bleeding eyes. so then you would have to feel there face because if someone told you there eyes were bleeding you wouldnt belive them unless you saw it....or if blind touch it. then your fingers would be all bloody and then it would be gross because you touched a bleeding eye and you hope to god that its not contagious but it wouldnt really matter because your blind and you dont really use your eyes.

moving on.....

i'm already unmotivated to do much homework. and its onl a couple days into the semester. i hope i break outta this rut soon of not doing anything.

oh and if anyone cares i can do a maximum of 240 damage with my ranger. his name is Thamior Lindon.

-matty k

he's not going to hold your hair when your down why let him hold you when your up?

its there right on the table, along with everything else you said
your an emotional massochist, you enjoy those tears you shed.
its never good enough to feel right
so go on now, cry those tears on your silk sheet satin spread.

is that how you spell satin?

there is a song writters competition a comin' and i need to come up with 3 new songs. they have to be new because i forgot how the ones i wrote last year went. plus they weren't very good.

i wish i was the lyrical/musical mastermind behind "wonderwall".

i realized the other day how big of a nerd i really am. i walked into a games workshop, you know those ones where they play warhammer on huge tables decorated with small trees and rivers, and talked to a guy that worked there for 5 minutes on how the game worked. good thing i was with a non judging friend because i was actually really interested in what he was saying.

i would like very much to learn and play that game.

i wonder if i could drop out of the sciences and take a major in "Dungeons and Dragons" with a minor in WARHAMMER.

i think its all capitallized. anywho you must forgive my bad spelling/punctuation.

i must go i need to catch a flight.

i really hope they have tv's in the plane

-matty k

p.s darren if you are reeading this i will be at the airport at 11:04 pm. i sent an email earlier but i didnt know if it sent. i excited out of the server before it confirmed. i guess i could write another one while i am writting this but there is no time so yah i guess i am going to go, i think i am going to have to borrow some tooth paste tonight because i forgot to pack mine and the suitcase is full. how much is toothpaste? anywho i gatta go,sadkjbfaerlbgaw